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<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>Dear Raffi…<o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>It’s been really interesting to read
your genuine insights and thought process about inner aggression…thank
you for that! <o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>I am writing because your call to hold
space for Armenian Genocide urged me to share with you all my experience, as a
Turkish person as well as a world citizen. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>I’ve been blessed with being able to
travel and live abroad from an early age which changed my life. It wasn’t
until my early 20s though that I had heard about the Armenian Genocide. An
Armenian friend of mine had explained to me how today’s eastern <st1:country-region
w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Turkey</st1:place></st1:country-region> was
Armenian land and what happened in 1915. I remember the shock and how
threatened I felt…it was like a bad joke…but in reality it wasn’t.
<o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>I am afraid I still don’t know today
the details of what happened during that time. Not because I don’t care,
not because I am ignorant. I had a much stronger experience than I could have by
reading books about the genocide. Due to my work, I traveled to <st1:country-region
w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Armenia</st1:place></st1:country-region> last
year to work with the local Habitat organization there…to be honest, I
was anxious, I did not know what to expect. But it turned out to be one of the
most powerful experiences of my life. I have never been received by any group
of people with such warmth, and generosity and openness. Believe me, it was
beyond the typical Armenian hospitality. I had the feeling that people embraced
me even more because I was very much connected with their history. I was simply
there, working with them and being open, and all it took was to acknowledge
what happened in 1915. I was a silent witness of the pain. I listened to
stories, I visited the genocide monument. I learned to be humble…there
was no aggression, there was just sadness. When I stood near the Turkish border
and looked up at Ararat, I wondered why this border had to divide these two
people so distinctly…that was the aggression in my mind, and as a counter
image I envision that border wide open and both people freely traveling some
day. The Armenian lady who hosted me and fed me so well during my time there,
told me the story of her father who was a genocide survivor. She told me that
he lost his whole family, yet he was saved by a Turkish neighbor…his
father didn’t even speak Armenian when he finally made his way to <st1:place
w:st="on"><st1:City w:st="on">Yerevan</st1:City></st1:place>, he just spoke
Turkish…<o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>I did not literally do open space in <st1:country-region
w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Armenia</st1:place></st1:country-region> but I
felt I met Armenian people in open space, in a very humane space. At a personal
level, there was such a strong connection, I felt extremely alive and inspired.
In fact, one of my biggest dreams is to hold an open space with Armenian and
Turkish people together some day…so people can experience what I
experienced: going beyond their fears, threats and stereotypes by simple being
together in healthy dialogue with open minds and hearts. Remembering our
centuries old close connections and just replacing the aggression and the
ignorance with that connection. Political system managed to keep our people separate
for a long time but I believe the civil society can awaken us, especially
Turkish society to this sensitive issue. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>I just wanted to say that I am moved by
your call and I will hold inner and outer space on April 24<sup>th</sup>, I
will also share this with my dear Armenian friends and colleagues. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span style='font-size:
10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'>Thank you once again. Maybe we can host an
open space together for Turkish and Armenian people some day. </span></font><font
size=2 color=navy face=Wingdings><span style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:
Wingdings;color:navy'>J</span></font><font size=2 color=navy face=Arial><span
style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:Arial;color:navy'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
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<p class=MsoNormal><strong><b><font size=2 color="#00ccff"
face="Lucida Handwriting"><span style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Lucida Handwriting";
color:#00CCFF'>filiz</span></font></b></strong><font color=navy><span
style='color:navy'> <o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 color="#ff0080" face=Jokerman><span
style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:Jokerman;color:#FF0080'>every day is a good
day<o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
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<p class=MsoNormal style='margin:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt'><b><font size=2
face=Tahoma><span style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:Tahoma;font-weight:bold'>From:</span></font></b><font
size=2 face=Tahoma><span style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:Tahoma'> OSLIST
[mailto:OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU] <b><span style='font-weight:bold'>On
Behalf Of </span></b>Raffi Aftandelian<br>
<b><span style='font-weight:bold'>Sent:</span></b> Wednesday, April 20, 2005
9:36 AM<br>
<b><span style='font-weight:bold'>To:</span></b> OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU<br>
<b><span style='font-weight:bold'>Subject:</span></b> Re: inner aggression and
the OST facilitator</span></font><o:p></o:p></p>
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<p class=MsoNormal><font size=3 face="Times New Roman"><span style='font-size:
12.0pt'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>[oops! I sent the previous message without
finishing writing it; a</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Spirit trick?]</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Hi dear fellow openspacers!</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I want to continue expressing my profound
gratitude. I am really</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>enjoying this conversation. I would like
to backtrack for a moment and</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>talk about what brought me to this
conversation.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Being in the season of the teacher right
now on the medicine wheel</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>means one of the things I am working with
right now is discernment.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>When I first put out this question, I am
not sure I contextualized it</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>as much as I could have.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I want to speak to one of my projections
(on to the listserv) right now. I am worried that</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>people might be thinking that I am opening
space in a really weird</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>way. I have never used strong language
(besides "oh shit") in the opening, but I do now know</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>that I have a much stronger initial
awareness of my aggression than</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>ever before. And now, I can give a group
much more quality in opening</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>space. Thanks to you!</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I ask these questions because I am
extremely motivated to do this OST</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>work with excellence. It would be great if
I were motivated to commune</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>with One just because there is a One, but
it is OST (and the Genuine</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Contact Program) that has motivated me to
really look at myself with a</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>German/Swiss/Japanese/Russian precision
magnifying glass. And so when</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I ask these questions I instantly make the
connection with the life</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>work which has the deepest meaning for
me. </span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Doing anything, I imagine, can be a path
to communing with the sacred (I am a little shy about really exploring
"doing anything" right now as I wonder can prostitution, for example,
also be a path to communing with the sacred). </span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Sometimes Quakers call themselves a
"priesthood of all believers." I think </span></font></span><span
class=rvts9><b><i><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>if</span></font></i></b></span><span
class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'> we choose to live intentionally as
a </span></font></span><span class=rvts11><u><font size=2 color=black
face="Bookman Old Style"><span style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Community</span></font></u></span><span
class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'> of OST facilitators, we can be the
same-- and take this even further to be a monastic order. I see that this
listserv has bits and pieces of this. The issue of Community I would like to
come back to at a later point.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Michael, your teaching about anger was
extremely valuable. I think I</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>am starting to suffer from wisdom
overload-- what depth I am hearing</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>here as a consequence, and it will take a
while to digest this all! As</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I shared offlist, I have heard such
valuable responses that I want to</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>print them out and carry them with me.
(Might this be a variation of</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>the event Ralph Copleman mentioned--
"Poetry in your pocket day"?).</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Just knowing that the energy of that
wisdom is in my pocket would be</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>wonderful!</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Lisa, you asked what made me sad (and
again thank you for making space</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>for me to human). I can only begin to talk
about this,</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>because I think it goes much deeper. I
am/was sad because there is a</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>realization that at a very deep (but not
core, I hope) level, I am</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>doing this work for ME. My prime motivator
for doing this work is that</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>it has meaning and it brings ME joy. There
is a part of me that</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>doesn't care about people, doesn't care
when misfortune falls upon</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>others. And I want to befriend that part
of me, to unsurface her (yes,</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>for whatever reason "she" came
up). Your thoughts about being fully</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>human and being present were very helpful
to see/hear.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>This Saturday I have a workshop coming up
(using not OST but Whole</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Peson Process Faciltiation in this case).
And I all along have been</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>visualizing the workshop, noticing where
there is nervousness (this</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>will be a professional conference of
trainers, facilitators, coaches</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>-- and while they know me, this will be
the first time I will be</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>presenting on my own; I keep on wondering
what to do to take ME out of</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>the room for the workshop. Yes, it is
great to enjoy what I am doing.</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>But, to paraphrase what a zen master might
say, the next challenge is</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>to let the @#$%## thought go...</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>When I started this thread, I remembered
about a book that is just the</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>bible, I imagine, for dealing with the
very issue. And I took it off</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>my shelf. It's called </span></font></span><span
class=rvts8><i><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Sitting in the Fire: Large group
transformation</span></font></i></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts8><i><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>using conflict and diversity</span></font></i></span><span
class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>, by Arnold Mindell (founder of</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>process-oriented psychology). It is full
of exercises on surfacing and</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>befriending all of our facilitator demons.
Time to use this book?</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I opened it randomly today to p.200:</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>"Watch your own high dreams as a
facilitator. Do they call for people</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>to change? As I pointed out in the last
chapter, an elder assumes that</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>people are exactly what they are meant to
be. Perhaps they are full of</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>mundance characteristics like greed, envy,
vengefulness and</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>abusiveness. Can you accept them? Better
yet, can you change yourself</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>to love them?</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Try seeing your own enemies, friends, and
neighbors as they are in the</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>moment, not as you would like them to be.
Although they are your</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>friends today, remember that next week
they may be your attackers.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Remember that, historically, very few
people have managed to uproot</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>from themselves the tyrant, the monarch,
the oppressor, the abuser or</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>the one seeking revenge. It's we learn to
expect negativity and to</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>move with it.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Luckily blasting a high dream to bits does
not always result in</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>permanent depression. When we look back,
it may seem as if our high</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>dreams had to be exploded in order to
prepare the ground for an even</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>more comprehensive view of the
world."</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>One of my dreams is to somehow marry
processwork and OST. One day that</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>may very well happen.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Mindell is coming to <st1:City w:st="on"><st1:place
w:st="on">St. Petersburg</st1:place></st1:City> in May. I am holding space for</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>myself to be able to attend this workshop.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>
******</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Another result of working with the
medicine wheel is that for the</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>first time I have begun thinking seriously
about my ancestors. What</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>gifts have my ancestors given me?</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I think one of the biggest gifts my
parents have given me is a radical</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>honesty.</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>And, my father in a phone call today
reminded me of an important</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>anniversary coming up: April 24th is the
90th anniversary of the</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Armenian Genocide. I am 1/2 Armenian and
1/2 Italian by blood. I don't</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>speak much Armenian and almost no Italian.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I have never taken this date terribly
seriously. But this initial</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>curiosity about my ancestors and
aggression makes me want to write a</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>little publicly about this.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>The Armenian Genocide is a still
unacknowledged atrocity. 1.5 million</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Armenians died over 20 years at the hands of
the <st1:place w:st="on">Ottoman Empire</st1:place></span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>--1896-1915. I would like to ask those who
feel moved to to hold inner</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>(and outer) space</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>on this date. I am not sure what kind of
intention would be best to</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>put here-- maybe just to ask for awareness
in all humans (ask for</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>awareness for self).</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>I notice the resentment I sometimes feel
at some Jews because they see</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>talk about anything but the Holocaust as a
treading on toes. There was</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>the Holocaust, period; there were no other
genocides.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>And yet, I know that somewhere in that
resentment is a denying of my</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>own humanity and the person I am engaging
with at the moment.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>And I learned recently that I do have a
connection to the Holocaust,</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>too. My great aunt (my Armenian
grandmother's sister) was married to a</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Jew (a banker representing the Rothschild
family) from <st1:City w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Tbilisi</st1:place></st1:City>,</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><st1:country-region w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on"><span class=rvts7><font
size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span style='font-size:11.0pt;
color:black'>Georgia</span></font></span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span
class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>. My greatgrandmother refused to let her
daughter, Margo, to</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>marry a Jew. She demanded that he get
baptized in the Armenian Church</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>before getting married, which he did.</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>From what we learned a few weeks back,
Ilya Bunimovich died in the</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black
face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Holocaust...What happened to Margo is not
clear.</span></font></span><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span
style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>Raffi</span></font></span><font size=1
color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:"Courier New";
color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
<p><span class=rvts7><font size=2 color=black face="Bookman Old Style"><span
style='font-size:11.0pt;color:black'>
mailto:raffi@bk.ru</span></font></span><font
size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;font-family:
"Courier New";color:black'><o:p></o:p></span></font></p>
<p><font size=1 color=black face="Courier New"><span style='font-size:9.0pt;
font-family:"Courier New";color:black'><o:p> </o:p></span></font></p>
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