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At 10:08 AM 3/17/2003 +0300, Raffi Aftandelian wrote:<br>
<blockquote type=cite class=cite cite>My questions:<br><br>
1. What do I do about my conflictedness about OS?<br>
Inside I am still quite mixed about OS. I saw again that "it<br>
worked". Yet I am not quite convinced. This was the first time I
was<br>
paid appropriately for doing an OS (before I did it for free or<br>
almost-free). So I felt greater responsibility. It's this
combination<br>
of enchantment with and skepticism towards OS that lives with
me.<br><br>
Enchantment because on a head level it seems too simple and yet
works<br>
so well. Skepticism because it's hard to believe that something
that<br>
requires so little facilitator intervention (and skill) is so powerful.
Also, I am<br>
not still convinced that it brings results. I am such a
perfectionist,<br>
I really wonder if I'll ever be convinced that it brings
"results". Or<br>
that I'll ever know what "results" looks like.<br><br>
Also, I carry tremendous guilt. I got paid for sitting around. Was
I<br>
tired at the end of the day? Yes. I was "on". My role reminds
me of<br>
the emperor who wears no clothes (I recall your story, Harrison,
about<br>
the OS where the company's CEO or a consultant said that with OS
you'd<br>
developed the greatest OD scam ever: the workers formulate the<br>
questions, answer them themselves, the consultant does nothing and<br>
gets paid for it). A part of me feels like a fraud. Has anybody
else<br>
ever felt like this during OS?</blockquote><br>
So -- I guess I am just not getting my mind around this one! What don't
you understand about "It works."??? We could go through the
self-organization thing -- but that is only a theoretical description
which makes sense to me -- but that doesn't make it right, nor does it
change the commonly experienced reality that inviting people to join a
circle of concern, creating a bulletin board, opening a market place, and
getting out of the way -- WORKS! As for feeling guilty -- I guess I
miss that one too. The only guilt I can imagine would be if I were to
charge a whole mess of money for something truly complicated, requiring
major effort (on my part) -- which did nothing more than the people can
do all by themselves. Bottom line? People anywhere and everywhere
can do it all by themselves. It takes only a good head and a good heart.
Sure -- training is nice and, I think, useful. But i don't think it
improves the quality of Open Space so much as it increases our capacity
to function in Open Space, and to help others to do the same. <br><br>
So maybe you should just accept and enjoy the accolades and thanks --
declare victory -- and go home. You deserve it! Obviously you did a
fantastic job -- doing nothing. <br><br>
Harrison<br><br>
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