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<p>Judi Richardson wrote:
<blockquote TYPE=CITE> <font size=-2>Chris....</font> <font size=-2>As
I read your graciously generous posting, I smiled as I have several pages
of similar notes. How ever-willing that self-critic is to jump right
in there just when I think I've achieved a mind free from doubt.
At that point my attempt to just hold my ground requires the "inflatable
shoes" to become lead shoes.</font> <font size=-2>Your stunning description
of silence resonates. On my own and with groups I share meditation,
silence (although often stormy) is welcome. Yet in working with groups
I fall into mindreading — as I sense others are uncomfortble with the silence,
the host in me who is conditioned to insure that everyone has a good time
wants to fill in the space and silence. My knowing is that this is
manipulative and closes space — still it offers over and over.</font></blockquote>
<p><br>Yep re: mind reading. That is part of the key I think to why
my efforts to be in the silence that had enveloped the room were failing
in my own head. I was trying to respond to what i thought others
were doing. When I stopped trying, I just became authentically me.
And then I felt better. i have no idea how the group felt,
but my change did happen at the same time as a change in the group's energy.
<p>That could be a fallacy along the lines of "Every time I get sleepy,
the sun goes down," but there you go.
<p>Funny that when walking the circle these really tiny and subtle shifts
are magnified hugely. Part of my practice, especially as a parent,
is trying to make the rest of my life be so rich an experience as that.
<p>Chris
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