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<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>Ahhh - Paul Williams' poem
speaks to me - yes - and it tells of the truth of being able to speak the truth
inside oneself which is, in itself the truth at the moment. And that is
what I am asking, sending out, where are those who will speak THEIR truth, stand
in it no matter what it may be and not have to turn their heads away when you
look into their eyes? And yes, in the turning away they are, again, in
their truth and so what is the truth for them that creates the necessity to
separate, to not look - to pull away from the fire?</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>Thank you, Julie,
Toni</FONT></EM></DIV>
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<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial">----- Original Message ----- </DIV>
<DIV
style="BACKGROUND: #e4e4e4; FONT: 10pt arial; font-color: black"><B>From:</B>
<A title=jsmith@mosquitonet.com href="mailto:jsmith@mosquitonet.com">Julie
Smith</A> </DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>To:</B> <A
title=OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU
href="mailto:OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU">OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU</A>
</DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Sent:</B> Wednesday, October 03, 2001 2:35
PM</DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Subject:</B> Re: Conversation with
MySelf</DIV>
<DIV><BR></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Dear Toni,</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Your thoughts resonate with
mine. </FONT><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>I have experienced
a sadness this last week or so as I watched this space close over on
itself. We have stopped engaging with each other. This is a
choice that does not resonate with me, and is also a choice I am unwilling to
resist. (Interesting thought, there: I wonder how a state of
"non-resistance" differs from a state of "non-violent
resistance.")</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>I would like to share this bit
from Paul Williams' <U>Das Energi</U>:</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080>This is the
truth.</FONT></FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>It's all true.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Every word that anyone ever tells
you is true.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>If you could just open far
enough,</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Make the effort to
understand.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>It is time to destroy the myth of
the artist.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>We are all artists.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#800080><FONT face=Papyrus><FONT size=2>We need to become
better art <EM>appreciators.</EM></FONT></FONT></FONT><EM> </EM></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>There's plenty of great
creation.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>We need great listeners, great
readers, great perceivers.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Great receptors.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>It's all true; what's hard is not
<EM>saying </EM>truth but <EM>accepting </EM>truth.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Embracing truth.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2><EM>That </EM>is
greatness.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Open up.</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080></FONT></FONT> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT size=2><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080>I can't resist just
one more quote, for those who dream of peace and also for those who
don't. This is from Norton Juster, <U>The Phantom
Tollbo</U><U>oth</U></FONT></FONT><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2> as
quoted by Martha Minow:</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>The king says: "[T]here was one
very important thing about your quest that we couldn't discuss until you
returned.... It was impossible." And the king and his brother confirmed:
"[I]f we'd told you then, you might not have gone - and, as you've discovered,
so many things are possible just as long as you don't know they're
impossible."</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT face=Papyrus color=#800080 size=2>Julie</FONT></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
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<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial">----- Original Message ----- </DIV>
<DIV
style="BACKGROUND: #e4e4e4; FONT: 10pt arial; font-color: black"><B>From:</B>
<A title=sacred@anacortes.net href="mailto:sacred@anacortes.net">Toni
Petrinovich</A> </DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>To:</B> <A
title=OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU
href="mailto:OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU">OSLIST@LISTSERV.BOISESTATE.EDU</A>
</DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Sent:</B> Wednesday, October 03, 2001 12:09
PM</DIV>
<DIV style="FONT: 10pt arial"><B>Subject:</B> Conversation with MySelf</DIV>
<DIV><BR></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>This morning as I sat in
meditation, there occurred a surge of energy and unspoken words that mounted
and then brimmed over into a silent conversation with mySelf. The
question arose: WHERE are they? Where are the beings who can
hold the space of truth, integrity, compassion, love, forgiveness and
unity? Where on this planet do they live? Where is one who can
stand in the fire with me? Where do they reside who are willing to
look in the mirror of themselves and allow masks to drop so we may look at
each other in clarity?</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>My heart ached as I sat
and I reflected on the pain of the last month felt throughout the world -
how being REAL is what it is all about. And how that is what happened
to the American people on September 11th. Life got REAL real - and now
time has passed on while people are going about their daily lives, hanging
their patriotic flags out of windows and slashing their neighbors to bits
behind their backs; yelling at their loved ones; unable to find time and
space to sit in meditation yet finding all the time in the world for
whatever else fills their day; turning their heads when a question is asked
in truth and saying - "I can't go there; it is too hard"; pretending that
life will go on as it did in the past before the clarion call to wake up was
blasted throughout America and we created our own martyrs.
</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>And so, now, we sit in the
eye of the storm. It is strangely silent, is it not? There is a
waiting while the flags wave in the breeze, George Bush rallies the Congress
to give him torturing rights to get information "so long as it is not on
U.S. soil" and the workers in NY city continue to zip up the body bags
filled with pieces - not only pieces of bodies - pieces of identities that
died before having a chance to speak their unspoken truth, say their last
goodbyes and clean up whatever inner garbage needed disposing of before
transitioning through the veil.</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>And so I sit and marvel at
the words I hear spoken around me as I ask questions that seek to uncover
the unspeakable: Do you get value and connection out of prayer?
Answer: It is not meant to be anything except worshipping God; it is
not about connection. Will you come sit and meditate with me?
Answer: Oh, its too hard to quiet my mind; can't get past those
thoughts (and I am not going to attempt it because that would mean work on
my part). Can we talk about what separates us - what feelings, words,
thoughts keep us from being one? Answer: No, it scares me to be
real so I will continue to be false with you and be angry with you if you do
not accept my falseness. And on and on and on it
goes.</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>So, I sit and reflect and
feel and listen. I am not flying a flag for there is nothing to be
patriotic about. I do not support murdering people for oil disguised
as a war on terrorism; I restate that I do not believe the US did not know
this was coming and let it happen; I will continue to hold a position of
love and compassion for ALL involved because that ALL includes every being
on this planet. Yes, I know that all IS perfect and that this is part
of the experience we have chosen. Yet, in any moment, we can choose
again.</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>We can choose to be
conscious, to look, listen, feel and really hear each other and be unafraid
to drop the masks and protective barriers that surround each individual in
his/her particular way. We can spend time being present with each
other and allowing the other to speak the unspoken in their hearts and not
cast aspersions their way because we may not agree. We can spend each
day making time to be silent with the connection that is US, our Source
connection, so that we may know that we are all One. We can stop
pretending that it is okay to pretend. And then it will be seen where the
people are who can hold the space of truth and integrity, compassion and
love and they will be able to be seen; they will be able to be heard and
felt - and no one will feel alone again. If you dropped your mask to
only one person today and they, in turn, dropped theirs to one other - how
close we would all become. </FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>Ask yourself - how long do
you really believe Mother Earth will hold this energy? She is alive,
can feel, experiences life and what is happening to her body and those in
and on it. We are united in the spiritual and electronic/magnetic grid
that contains us in the field we call earth. How long can it hold
while those within it are disengaged from it within their
consciousness? Sit with it and see where the answer lies for
you.</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4>Toni
Petrinovich</FONT></EM></DIV>
<DIV><EM><FONT face=Garamond color=#800080 size=4></FONT></EM> </DIV>
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