Notes from a one day OST meeting

[Chris Corrigan]

Judi Richardson wrote:

>  Chris.... As I read your graciously generous posting, I smiled as I
> have several pages of similar notes.  How ever-willing that
> self-critic is to jump right in there just when I think I've achieved
> a mind free from doubt.  At that point my attempt to just hold my
> ground requires the "inflatable shoes" to become lead shoes. Your
> stunning description of silence resonates.  On my own and with groups
> I share meditation, silence (although often stormy) is welcome.  Yet
> in working with groups I fall into mindreading — as I sense others are
> uncomfortble with the silence, the host in me who is conditioned to
> insure that everyone has a good time wants to fill in the space and
> silence.  My knowing is that this is manipulative and closes space —
> still it offers over and over.
>

Yep re: mind reading.  That is part of the key I think to why my efforts
to be in the silence that had enveloped the room were failing in my own
head.  I was trying to respond to what i thought others were doing.
When I stopped trying, I just became authentically me.  And then I felt
better.   i have no idea how the group felt, but my change did happen at
the same time as a change in the group's energy.

That could be a fallacy along the lines of "Every time I get sleepy, the
sun goes down," but there you go.

Funny that when walking the circle these really tiny and subtle shifts
are magnified hugely.  Part of my practice, especially as a parent,  is
trying to make the rest of my life be so rich an experience as that.

Chris

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